1:30am and I am contemplating biting my phone the pain is so great. I cannot move at all. Muscle cramps in both my calves have rendered me useless. Que brain freak out in 3..2...1... My mind begins to wonder to bad places. I wonder if I should give up the 50 miler and drop to 26.2. Maybe I should drop my training level and build back up. Maybe I should not run my 26.2 this weekend. I could just need compression socks or sleeves. It feels like I have two golf ball bruises in my legs.
I fell back asleep and never got out of bed. I woke up and felt like my legs could seize up again any minute. I could barley walk with out holding on to the wall. Took a shower and wrapped my leg with an ace bandage. This is my first bump in the road this year. Every running year I have a little hiccup, freak out, and recover. I hope this one is short. My mind is still in a dark, bad place.